Writing a letter to the awesome person inside……..

Written by Amie on April 26, 2010 – 1:07 am -

It is never to late to give yourself this gift

I wrote a letter to myself last night. I wrote a letter to myself saying all of the things that I deserve to hear. Everybody deserves to hear these messages, preferably while we are still young so that we can grow up knowing the truth we are born with. It is never too late to give yourself the gift of hearing and seeing these messages. I pictured myself as a newborn baby while writing this letter. What would I say to a beautiful baby? These are the things I wrote to myself. We are all born perfect, and if we weren’t conditioned to believe otherwise, we would still have the truth within us. We would know without a doubt that we are exactly as we should be, we are beautiful inside and out. It is nobody’s fault that conditioning happens, it happens because it is still a process that hasn’t quite evolved yet. When we work on ourselves by healing and nurturing ourselves, we are contributing to the well being of the collective world. When we nurture ourselves, we begin healing, which in turn helps the evolution of self-love.

Saturate your inner being with love

It is very important in the process of healing ourselves to learn how to saturate our inner being with positive messages to drown out the untrue, negative messages. I have realized that it really isn’t important to try to figure out how the negative messages got there. Some people do feel the need to decipher the messages, as this can sometimes help in the understanding of how they took over. It is very common for one to receive non-verbal negative messages that seep deep into the cells. This is why it can sometimes be confusing as to why depression happens. There was a time that I didn’t even realize what messages were playing in my head because they had been there for so long and I had learned how to cover them up. For me, the bottom line is that I know how much I need to feel nurtured, and I know this nurturing must start inside of me.

Loving myself is not selfish

In one of my last posts, I wrote about how I recorded my voice using positive messages; messages that I would love to hear playing through my head. After listening to this yesterday, I decided that I would also love to have a letter written that expresses my love for myself! Right away I felt like I was “indulging” myself, or that I am selfish for doing loving things for myself. But then, my “new” (really my old voice that got buried) voice said stop right there! It is more than OK for me to love who I am. It is supposed to be a natural thing to love ourselves. We have been taught that we are “conceited” or that we are “selfish” if we think about ourselves too much. I bought into this for a very long time. I do think that some people probably think of themselves in ways that are unhealthy. This is not what I am talking about. I am talking about people who did not receive the nurturing they needed, and now find themselves depressed, and feeling guilty if they try to do nice things for themselves. My experience is that I do need extra nurturing until I feel completely healthy again. I need to nurture myself to the point that I feel unconditional love for me. This is healthy. We all deserve to be nurtured. Even as adults.

“To my sweet little one”

Back to writing my letter. I pictured myself as a baby, and then as a young child, a teen, and then a young adult. What would I love to hear at each of those ages?  Here is a shortened version of my letter. “To my sweet little one: I am so grateful that you were born, you are beautiful inside and out, I adore you. I love having you in my life, I feel so blessed that you are here. You are so special, and I think you are just perfect. Your smile makes me smile, your eyes shine like the sun. You matter, you are meant to be here, I love you and accept you exactly as you are. You are creative and you are capable of doing whatever you choose to do. I support you and I will be there for you always.”

I hope you will write yourself a love letter

This is just a part of my letter. I hope that you will feel inspired to write yourself a love letter expressing all of the messages that are buried deep inside you. You were born knowing these things. They are within each of us. Healing ourselves from depression does involve digging deep within ourselves to find the truth that is hidden within. The truth that each of us is loved for being exactly as we are. No matter what the messages were that we were conditioned with, the truth still lies within us. I hope this helps just a little bit with your journey of discovering your own truth. You  are loved.

Beautiful and Courageous YOU


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Rediscovering the messages we are all born with

Written by Amie on April 17, 2010 – 9:24 pm -

Positive messages and how they become permanent in my brain

Falling back on the old messages that run through my head is easier than practicing and rediscovering the truth hidden underneath, but only because it is my mind’s habit. It feels familiar, but it doesn’t feel good. I want to wake up each morning knowing deep in my heart that I am loved unconditionally, and I belong here. I do know these things on an intellectual level, but my body does not completely believe them *yet*. Some days, yes, I know without a doubt that these things are true. Other days when I am not feeling as great, not so much. I am really noticing that I need to practice, practice, practice. I used to think positive messages would just start coming to me automatically, as I started healing past issues. But this is not the case. I have talked so much on here about those negative voices that are *not* who we are, and are not true. What I know for sure now, is that it took years for these beliefs to take hold, and it may take years for my true beliefs to overpower the negative, untrue ones. But I am so optimistic because I do have many days and sometimes weeks and maybe even a whole month where I go each day *feeling* that I am unconditionally loved, and I have a purpose here. So, I absolutely know that I am on the right track.

Practice the new beliefs

I am able to step back and see that just like I “practiced” the negative thoughts in my head, even if it was on an unconscious level, I must practice the new beliefs. Now that I know *for sure*, that my thoughts are not me, I am able to keep moving forward with this new practice of rediscovering my truth. I know that I was born with joy and love coursing through my veins. Now it is my job to get back to that, and have deep feelings of this vibrating in every cell in my body. I know that I will revert back to the old stuff, that is part of the process. But the practice of saying nice things to myself and treating myself with love and compassion helps me push the old stuff back to where it belongs. It does not belong in my head at all. Yes, it is a part of me in the sense that I can’t change the things that made these thoughts show up. However, I can start right now, today, and know that I am not those thoughts. My thoughts are generated by my mind, or the ego. My mind helps me out a great deal, but it can also get in the way of my flow of joy. I have to train it in goodness rather than it training me with negativity. Sounds like I have multiple personalities?! I don’t, but I do sort of think of my mind as being separate from who I really am. My mind is something I utilize to help me in many daily activities, that’s a given. However, when it comes to describing who I am, well, it doesn’t always help. This is when I practice separating my mind from *me*. I am in charge, and I now know that I decide what my mind tells me.

Thanks, but no thanks

This is when the practice comes in handy. If my mind is telling me something that I now know to be untrue, I listen, but I don’t believe it. I don’t try to push it away, I just say, thanks for that, but I no longer believe that to be true. Then, I say what I know *or want* to feel true, and I say it many times. I notice now that I am remembering to question the thoughts more often, rather than just letting them run ramper through my mind, and believing them just because they are there! Just because they are there does not mean they are true. They are there because my mind learned them and kept repeating them, making them feel like reality. What a relief to know that the negative thoughts and beliefs are just a bunch of conditioned lies that I didn’t know to question!

You are loved!

The bottom line is, I must love myself

There are so many people with great books and lessons about how to get rid of negative messages. I have read most of them! I feel so incredibly grateful for the path I found. I have taken things from each book and used what felt good to me at the time. I learned that no matter what I do, none of the techniques or lessons or ideas will ever help me unless I start at the place of loving myself. I know this for sure. If I don’t love myself, I can everything there is that “looks good on paper”, but I will not heal unless I love myself first. A catch 22, right? How do I get to the place of loving myself?

I was born with loving messages

There are so many suggestions out there, but I keep coming back to the same few processes that help. The most important thing for me is to give myself a break! When the judgments begin, I practice noticing them, and then giving my mind the true statement. This is crucial for me right now. I keep reminding myself that I was born with these messages, and they are there inside me, I am in the process of redisovering them. The next thing is that I meditate every day. I give myself time to just *be* with myself. No pressure, no obligations, just sitting with myself giving myself the time to enjoy my own company. The other thing that helps is to remember to be grateful for what I do have. This has become a very important ingredient in my life. When I was feeling horribly depressed, it was difficult to feel grateful for anything. I knew I *should* feel grateful because I am very fortunate. But when I felt such self hatred, I could not wrap my head around feeling grateful. When I am feeling down these days, I still try to make myself write down things I feel grateful for. Even if I don’t feel it. Another thing I do is to make sure I do something every single day that is special for me. Even if it looks like something very small, like buying a purple pen because I love pens and I love purple! My newest joy is rocking in my hammock chair. It is so nurturing! I use all kinds of visions of who or what is rocking me. It is awesome! The biggest thing is to try to be in each moment right as it is happening. Not always easy, but I try to use reminders, like my reminder bracelet. It helps me if my mind is venturing off somewhere to come back to what is right now. I also practice *going to* my body when I start feeling off. I ask my body instead of my head what it is feeling. I go for the body sensations first, and they usually have a story to tell me. I have to say that homeopathy and EFT have played an enormous role in helping me re-learn the truth of who I really am. I am loved unconditionally, and I my birthright is joy and love. Also, changing my story and using law of attraction is huge in my life.

Nurturing yourself after neglecting yourself is not always easy

I want to acknowledge how difficult it can be to start nurturing yourself after years of neglecting your true self. It has taken me years to get to where I am, and I don’t always feel as good as I do right now. In fact, if you read a few posts back, you will see that I was full of anger just a short time ago. I want to say this because if you came to this website looking for help with healing depression, I want you to know that I understand how difficult it can be. During those times when I was very down, I would go to a website and read joyful things, and I would feel so frustrated, and the stories in my mind would play on. “I’ll never get better, this person is so far ahead of me,  I will suffer for the rest of my life, etc etc.” I know what that is like. I am here to share what has worked for me, and I really hope that you can pull something from my experiences that might help you on your journey. You are loved just because you are you. That’s the truth, and I hope you are able to find that inside yourself soon.

*Under featured videos there are some great quotes by Eckhart Tolle. Enjoy, and take it in.


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