Feeling alive with passion and excitement

Written by Amie on May 14, 2009 – 1:26 am -

In order to change and grow, we must have things in our lives that we feel excited about. Part of my daily meditation includes me asking to be shown what I need to do in order to be of help to others. There are times when I feel a rush of passion flow through me as an idea comes to mind. I get excited thinking that I have something new to work on.Many times I receive a message on exactly what I should do. I felt that I was supposed to share my experiences with others, which I am hoping to do with this website. It also came through to me to make a healing CD, which I am working on now. I have learned that I need to have a purpose, a passion, something that I feel excited about.

After my kids were born, I became passionate about learning everything that I could possibly learn about gentle, respectful parenting. I became very passionate about being present with my children, and loving them unconditionally. Then I added  unschooling. I learned and am still learning everything I can about helping my children to discover their passions. These things made me feel so excited! If I ignored my passions, I became somewhat lost, and I felt like I was wasting my time. I can see now how important it is to feel excited about something, anything. It doesn’t have to be some spectacular thing, it can just be something I am interested in learning more about, or helping someone, or volunteering my time. When we aren’t excited about life, we are just kind of waiting around in limbo, unsure of what to do next.

When I am feeling unsure, I use meditation to help me reconnect with myself. I may not always get an answer right away, but it always makes me feel connected to myself and to the whole Universe. Meditation reminds me that I am a part of something much bigger, and this makes me feel excited. When I feel passionate about something, life is moving through me. Passion reminds me that I am alive. I believe we are here to find passion and joy. There will be bumps along the way, but if we can stay connected to our aliveness, we will be okay. It seems that so often, people give up the things that make them feel alive in order to do things that they think they “should” do. Other people don’t follow the things they love because of fear. Fear can take over and cover up our passions. 

I know that when I lose the connection with myself, I also lose the will to do what I need to do in order to keep myself healthy and happy. When I disconnect from the things that make me feel alive, I start feeling lost, and alone.  When this happens, depression always follows. Before I go to sleep each night, I try to remember the things that I was grateful for that day, and I also think of the things I will be doing the next day that I feel excited about. Sometimes it could just be something like going out for pizza with my kids, or taking my son to a golf lesson that he really loves. I think it is important to have things to feel excited or passionate about. 

I think the most important thing I have learned on this healing journey so far is that in order for me to be who I really am, I must stay connected to myself by doing the things that make me feel alive. Whenever depression hits me, it is because I am not being true to myself, I am burying something in me that is trying to express itself. I am not expressing my passion, or my aliveness. I know that in order for me to feel joy and contentment, I must have the courage to be who I really am by expressing my passionate side. I leave the judgment behind, and follow my heart. If there is one thing that I hope my kids pick up along the way, it is this:  discover your passions, and follow them with all of your heart.


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