What else am I capable of that I wasn’t aware of?

Written by Amie on October 18, 2009 – 1:27 am -

Unlimited Possibilities

It hit me today that I have unlimited possibilities in my life. I can decide what I want to do, and I can find a way to do it. I can decide that nobody else can *make* me feel any certain way. I am a strong woman. I can say that now! I wondered to myself today, “what am I capable of that I am not even aware of yet?” I made sure to say, “yet”, because I will discover these other things. I thought to myself  that if I am capable of getting to a place of self love in my life after hating myself so much, what else am I capable of? I get excited thinking of uncovering so much more about myself that I buried long ago.

There is no set path

Isn’t this exciting? It doesn’t matter how old we are, what we have been through, what our circumstances are today, right in this second! We *always* have another chance to uncover our possibilities and potential. I felt so excited today thinking about this. There is *no set path*. I am creating my story as I go along. I don’t want to sit back and just let things happen. I want to uncover my surprises for myself! I can’t wait to see what else I have in store for me!  I wish I could have realized this when I was suffering so deeply, without much hope of ever feeling better. I thought my story had been written, I thought that I didn’t control what I choose to believe and do with my life. Knowing that I can control my story makes me feel empowered!

We have the strength to change!

All of us have the strength to change our lives. I know that from experience now. That doesn’t necessarily mean we won’t struggle. But just knowing that I can change my life by changing what I believe about myself and my story, is powerful. I look at how my life has changed over the past 12 years since my kids were born. I have been to the bottom of the pit and back up. My children opened up a space in my heart that sent me a message saying *anything and everything is possible*. My children opened up a place in me helping me realize that even though I didn’t know who I was, I was definitely getting ready to announce my presence to the world! No more sitting back and being quiet for me. No way.

If I am capable, so are you!

If I am capable of healing from the deep dark place that depression took me, I wonder what else I am capable of? Maybe a better question is, “what am I *not* capable of?” My life is my life. Your life is your life. You have so much inside you just waiting to show itself.  There were so many things holding me back. In addition to these things, the stories I told myself about myself held me back. I wonder what is holding you back? Even though we may have beliefs that tell us we are so terribly flawed, or that we could never make a difference, *these are just stories*! Isn’t that good to know? Just like a movie script, you get to make up your story! Even if you don’t feel the movie’s truth, keep playing the new movie over and over, and pretty soon it will be your favorite movie. In the same way that our old stories became a part of us, so can our new ones. I am working on a new twist to my movie right now! I don’t want this to sound like I am trying to deny any pain you have had in your life. Believe me, I know pain. But, now I know I am capable of getting through the pain to get to the other side. You are capable too! I wonder what else you are capable of that is already inside you, just waiting for you to release it to the world. We are all powerful, loving, capable, incredibly strong human beings.

The Pain-Body

I learned that when I was still playing my old movies over and over in my head, it was actually my “pain-body” controlling the show. This is a term coined by Eckhart Tolle. It is an accumulation of negative experiences, trauma, untruths, etc that have happened to a person. It wants to be the one in control of you, and it is, for many people. My pain-body was controlling me for quite some time! I wanted to add this video to give you an idea of what I mean. He talks about this term in his book,  A New Earth. If you don’t want to read the whole book yet, I want to let you know how helpful reading the chapter on the pain body was to me.  It was an awakening in and of itself.


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