The other side of depression….feeling alive again

Written by Amie on October 6, 2011 – 2:40 am -

Your depression can be healed

I keep sitting down to write and then I can’t seem to finish. I am going to try again! A friend of mine helped me see that I may be having a difficult time writing because I no longer suffer from depression. This is an incredible gift! This site began because it helped me to write about my journey with depression. So, maybe I just need to change the focus a bit. First of all, I want you to know that *your* depression can be healed. I promise you that. As long as you are willing to do the work, you can feel better. I feel so grateful for the way I feel right now. I honestly can say I have never felt better in my life. I have never felt this alive ever before. It is so obvious to me now that I was completely shut down for most of my life. I was depressed for many years. So, here I am….really feeling fantastic! Please don’t read that and get discouraged if you are feeling horrible right now. I remember feeling horrible and then reading something positive and just wanting to punch the screen. I would mumble under my breath some pretty nasty remarks to the person who was feeling good. I know, pretty helpful, huh? So, please stay with me here, and keep reading. My intention for this website has not changed. I truly want to help others who are suffering. I want to share the things that have gotten me to this much healthier place.

Homeopathy

I must give homeopathy a huge shout out because I believe that without it, I might still be struggling. I was very very depressed. I thought I was as low as I could go. I was wrong. My brother committed suicide. There was a lower place than where I was. I honestly didn’t think I could pull myself out of it. But, I did. With the help of an incredible therapist, an incredible homeopath, the best friends ever, family support (which is difficult when you are all suffering from the same trauma), and some other tools. However, the fuel for my recovery was homeopathy. It helped ignite my life force. It wasn’t fast and it wasn’t always easy, but it was the best thing I have ever done. And believe me, I have tried so many avenues. I knew that antidepressants were not an option this time. I realized that I had to *feel* and not try to push away my truth. Homeopathy fit the bill. It helped me to do all of the other things that have been instrumental in my healing. E-mail me if you need a recommendation for a homeopath.

I woke up!

The fact that you are searching the Internet and the fact that you landed here tells me that you are awakening. This is the most exciting thing ever!!! If you stay with yourself, and allow yourself to *feel*, you will heal your depression. Waking up is the beginning. Knowing that you don’t want to suffer anymore is key. Seeing things for what they truly are, and seeing people in your life for who they truly are keeps you moving on the path of awakening. My soul woke me up. The birth of my children began the process for me. I saw in them what I was missing in my life. The love I showered on them was the love I missed growing up. Their birth awakened something deep deep inside me. I was able to *feel* the giant hole inside me that needed to be filled. As time went on, I continued to grow. I continued to see things more clearly. I saw people in a different light. The most important thing is that I was truthful with myself. I started finally telling myself the truth of  what I felt and what I needed and what I like and dislike. This was huge! I had to learn how to allow all of this without holding on to the guilt and shame that was attached to it. 

I love myself now!

This is the most incredible feeling in the world! I can honestly say I am completely in love with myself now. And I do not feel an ounce of guilt saying that! It began with learning to nurture myself. I learned to do things that fed my soul, my spirit. I learned to tell people no! I learned to stay away from people who didn’t feed the goodness in me. Was it easy? Hell no!!!! But am I stronger? Hell yes!!! Do I know for sure I am a strong empowered woman? Hell yes!!!! It takes work. It takes learning to talk back to the voice inside your head that is feeding you lies. Trust me, the voices are not you! They are lies. Loving myself feels so wonderful, I can’t describe it. I meditate every day. I feel out of sorts without it. I exercise at least 5 days a week. All of these things happened because I was ready. I do not push myself to do any of it. It all comes natural now. I crave doing things that feel good. And, back to homeopathy-it is the driving force. I believe these things all come naturally to me now because I am more in balance mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and physically. There is so much more, but I must go to sleep.

Contact me with questions, as I am truly here to help

 

You are love….you have the answers you need right inside you…..dig through the old lies and stories to re-discover the truth you were born with…..you are a beautiful soul…..you deserve to be here…..you deserve to feel joy every day……let go of the old stuff you have carried around for years…..question every single thing you tell yourself…..only keep it if you know it to be 100% true….that means you have to prove that it is true! Do something for yourself that feels good…right now….love…

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8 Comments to “The other side of depression….feeling alive again”

  1. Priscilla Orozco Says:

    Hey my name is Priscilla. I never thought of seek this kind of help but I really do want to be able to feel again. I want to love myself & others as well but right now I just feel numb. I don’t know what it is that made me this way. & I don’t think anyone sees it but me. I feel trapped in who I am & I can’t say that I’m glad to be me. I want to feel alive & live in abundance the way I’m supposed to.

  2. Amie Says:

    Hello Priscilla,
    Thank you for reaching out. I’m sorry you are not feeling very well right now. It is really a great thing that you are reaching out looking for help! This is a good sign for you. I understand feeling numb, I was numb for many years. I had no idea what a true feeling felt like in my body.

    You are on a journey to discover your truth, your true self. The most important thing is to practice being gentle with yourself. It is vital to become of aware of the messages going through your mind. This will take time and it will take a lot of practice! Once you start becoming aware of what is going through your mind, you can begin questioning these things. What are your beliefs? Where did they come from? are they true? If so, can you prove they are true? Things like this. It is very likely that others do not see your pain and suffering. Most of us become wonderful actors. We learn to hide our pain. Do you have people in your life that know your true heart? ALthough, it may be difficult for anyone to know your true heart if you yourself don’t know your true heart. But do you have people in your life that you are able to be vulnerable with? People that will love you no matter what? This is very important also.

    Let me know if you have specific questions, I would be happy to help.

    Much love to you!
    Amie

  3. Aedan Worsham Says:

    Hi, this is Aedan…

    I feel like I see all this amazement around me through music, through people, through a lot of things, but my parents try to contain me constantly. I feel like don’t know as much and haven’t experienced as much as other people, whether it be on the internet, TV, media, and I wish I could leap out of my window and just run! Run until my heart gives out! So I can feel truly alive and not just put on an act. I want to know EVERYTHING there is that everyone else knowsso I feel not struggling behind and trying to learn, but rather to lead the pack!

  4. Amie Says:

    Hi Aedan,
    Thank you for writing. I am sorry you are struggling. Would you feel comfortable sharing more information? I so understand the feeling of wanting to run until your heart gives out. It really sounds like your true self is wanting to get out. Do you any freedom to get out to try new things so that you can find what makes you feel more alive? It is exhausting putting on an act, this I know for sure. I’m glad you are here.

  5. Joe Says:

    Hello Amie, it’s amazing how I got to this place and found your website . I was feeling very anxious about what I was going to do today and I felt very guilty because I didn’t want to do it and I honestly do not know how your website came onto my screen, but here IM after reading just your first letter I started to feel better I started writing down my true feelings on a piece of paper I started to connect with myself I take antidepressants and I know longer want to take them I want to live free and whole just writing down my true feelings took a huge weight off of my soul I’m already experiencing happiness painlessness the true test will come when it is time to interact with others I’m terrified of turning in my resignation to my boss because I know how valuable I am to the company and how angry he will be because I’m leaving do you have any suggestions ? Thank you for all your doing to educate and inspire me and the countless others who are dealing with depression

  6. Amie Says:

    Hi Joe,
    How cool that you found my blog but you aren’t sure how it came up. I love stories like this!So happy to hear you started feeling better once you began writing down your true feelings. I am imagining a big breath of relief. I totally understand not wanting to take antidepressants. I remember feeling numb. I would caution you somewhat to take it very very slow once you begin weaning yourself. Work very closely with your doctor and/or pharmacist to very very gradually cut back. I think you can have a compounding pharmacist do this so that the increments are very small. Also, sometimes people start feeling worse and the doctor tells them its because they need the medication, when in fact, it is the brain readjusting. I don’t want to scare you from going off, I just want to share that because many doctors don’t know the true effects.You may not have an issue at all, but I wanted to mention it just in case. I also understand the fear of interacting with others. It truly does take practice. It is like learning a new language. For me, the key is to remain in touch with my true needs, and to use mantras or something that keeps me present with myself. And, plan ahead of the meetings with people you are nervous about. Have an “escape plan” so to speak. I would excuse myself to go to the restroom, just to take a few minutes to breathe and come back to myself if I felt I was starting to get too anxious. I would say with your boss to make sure you have a plan beforehand, and to keep reminding yourself that you are taking care of yourself.That felt very foreign to me for awhile, so this takes practice, the taking care of yourself part. Thank you for your kind words, it makes me really happy knowing others are benefiting from my words and experiences. Thank you for being here, and for having the courage to reach out, I know that isn’t always easy. 🙂

  7. Claire Says:

    Hi Amie
    Could you tell me what homeopathy medicine you took to help you;thinking of trying it!

  8. Amie Says:

    Hi Claire,
    I worked with a classical homeopath, which I would highly recommend this route. They will help find a constitutional rememdy for you, rather than just treating the symptoms. I have been through a few different rememdies, and they all worked on different layers. Sepia and lachesis can be common remedies for women. Not always just for women,but often. The thing is with homeopathy, there are thousands of remedies, and even though depression and anxiety are so common, each person can have a different remedy picture. This is why it is best to work with a homeopath. I am a 100% believer in homeopathy! It is capable of miracles! Best to you, keep me posted, and let me know if I can help in any way.

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