Believe nothing until YOU decide it is true

Written by Amie on August 25, 2010 – 1:00 am -

You don’t need to be fixed

So it has been awhile since I have written, but I am feeling the need to write, so here I am! I have been doing so much internal processing, and I just haven’t had the urge to write until now. I am reading the book The Presence Process, and I am doing the work involved. I highly recommend this book! For me, it is exactly what I needed after reading A New Earth.  I want to write because I am hoping that my journey and process might help someone else on their journey. I think it is really important to remember that no one person or people can give you the answers you need to “fix” you. The reason I believe this is true is because nobody needs to be fixed, and each one of us has everything we need right inside us. Our “job” is to remember what is already within us. Every single person is perfect exactly as they are. Each one of us is exactly where we are supposed to be. We can read and listen to other people which is helpful, but we still have to follow our own heart. Others can get us started on the path to discovering the truth within us, but nobody can do it for us or tell us exactly what is “right” for us. We must remember that we are loved and we can remember the truth when we choose to. It really is a choice that we can make. We can choose to believe the “stories” we have been told our whole lives, whether these were verbal or non-verbal, or we can choose to not believe one single thing unless it resonates 100%  with us. I do understand what it is like to be so depressed that you don’t know to even question your beliefs. However, since you are reading this, you must have a feeling somewhere in your body, that is telling you there is another way to be living.

The towel police???

I want to help you remember the truth that you were born with. Most of us get sidetracked and forget this truth. Rather, we are conditioned and shaped to believe what others and society deem as “right”. The truth is each of us knows exactly what we need, what we want, what we feel. The problem is that we have bought into the stories that we were told. Because we were children when these stories were told, we had no way of knowing that we could question these stories. I have been quite shocked lately at the things I have discovered about myself. In fact, I am questioning everything. I don’t just mean beliefs in general. I mean I question everything I am doing, seeing, believing, liking, observing……I went shopping the other day for some bath towels. I was looking at the colors available, and thinking to myself, “I can’t buy all of the colors that I really like, I have to just choose one color so that they all match.” I almost convinced myself that I HAD TO do this. I almost convinced myself that I had no choice but to purchase one color so that…..so that what??????? The towel police wouldn’t come arrest me for choosing multiple colors of towels….and they don’t all match????? WOW, I realized what my thoughts were telling me and I laughed out loud, and then proceeded to buy whatever colors I loved!!!! And, guess what, they don’t really even match the colors in my bathroom….I know…what a shock!!!! I felt so happy when I left the store. I loved the colors I picked out, and I loved that I chose them because I wanted to, not because of some voice from somewhere (?) was telling me what I should do.

Right/Wrong/Good/Bad

This is the incident that really clarified things for me. I had been questioning my beliefs before, but not to this degree. I wasn’t really allowing myself  to be completely myself. I still had these voices telling me what I “Should” do and what was right/wrong/good/bad. My goal is to not label anything good or bad, right or wrong because who gets to decide what is right or wrong, good or bad???? I am not going by someone else’s idea of that anymore. I check in with myself, and then I decide what I would like to do. I feel free! My world consists of the stories in my head. I want to encourage you to question every single thing that you do. Try to become aware of the stories for each encounter you have. Become a curious child again, and ask yourself why? Why can’t I have the color of towels that I want? Why can’t I go do something nice for myself. Don’t believe any of the stories you are telling yourself unless you can prove that they are true. I can’t think of one valid reason for me not to have multiple colored towels. How can I prove that I must have a matching set? I can’t. It is a story I picked up somewhere along the way. Most of the time, our stories make NO SENSE!  Learning to observe everything without judgment is helping me so much. I am able to step back and laugh at most things I “thought” we true. As Buddha said, “Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who has said it, not even if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.”

LOVE this song and video by Michael Franti! Remember…..YOU are loved always!!!!! Remember the truth within you that can never be taken away.

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What else am I capable of that I wasn’t aware of?

Written by Amie on October 18, 2009 – 1:27 am -

Unlimited Possibilities

It hit me today that I have unlimited possibilities in my life. I can decide what I want to do, and I can find a way to do it. I can decide that nobody else can *make* me feel any certain way. I am a strong woman. I can say that now! I wondered to myself today, “what am I capable of that I am not even aware of yet?” I made sure to say, “yet”, because I will discover these other things. I thought to myself  that if I am capable of getting to a place of self love in my life after hating myself so much, what else am I capable of? I get excited thinking of uncovering so much more about myself that I buried long ago.

There is no set path

Isn’t this exciting? It doesn’t matter how old we are, what we have been through, what our circumstances are today, right in this second! We *always* have another chance to uncover our possibilities and potential. I felt so excited today thinking about this. There is *no set path*. I am creating my story as I go along. I don’t want to sit back and just let things happen. I want to uncover my surprises for myself! I can’t wait to see what else I have in store for me!  I wish I could have realized this when I was suffering so deeply, without much hope of ever feeling better. I thought my story had been written, I thought that I didn’t control what I choose to believe and do with my life. Knowing that I can control my story makes me feel empowered!

We have the strength to change!

All of us have the strength to change our lives. I know that from experience now. That doesn’t necessarily mean we won’t struggle. But just knowing that I can change my life by changing what I believe about myself and my story, is powerful. I look at how my life has changed over the past 12 years since my kids were born. I have been to the bottom of the pit and back up. My children opened up a space in my heart that sent me a message saying *anything and everything is possible*. My children opened up a place in me helping me realize that even though I didn’t know who I was, I was definitely getting ready to announce my presence to the world! No more sitting back and being quiet for me. No way.

If I am capable, so are you!

If I am capable of healing from the deep dark place that depression took me, I wonder what else I am capable of? Maybe a better question is, “what am I *not* capable of?” My life is my life. Your life is your life. You have so much inside you just waiting to show itself.  There were so many things holding me back. In addition to these things, the stories I told myself about myself held me back. I wonder what is holding you back? Even though we may have beliefs that tell us we are so terribly flawed, or that we could never make a difference, *these are just stories*! Isn’t that good to know? Just like a movie script, you get to make up your story! Even if you don’t feel the movie’s truth, keep playing the new movie over and over, and pretty soon it will be your favorite movie. In the same way that our old stories became a part of us, so can our new ones. I am working on a new twist to my movie right now! I don’t want this to sound like I am trying to deny any pain you have had in your life. Believe me, I know pain. But, now I know I am capable of getting through the pain to get to the other side. You are capable too! I wonder what else you are capable of that is already inside you, just waiting for you to release it to the world. We are all powerful, loving, capable, incredibly strong human beings.

The Pain-Body

I learned that when I was still playing my old movies over and over in my head, it was actually my “pain-body” controlling the show. This is a term coined by Eckhart Tolle. It is an accumulation of negative experiences, trauma, untruths, etc that have happened to a person. It wants to be the one in control of you, and it is, for many people. My pain-body was controlling me for quite some time! I wanted to add this video to give you an idea of what I mean. He talks about this term in his book,  A New Earth. If you don’t want to read the whole book yet, I want to let you know how helpful reading the chapter on the pain body was to me.  It was an awakening in and of itself.

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