Turn on the light

Written by Amie on May 31, 2009 – 11:23 pm -

I want to be in the dark!

 I thought I was far along on this human journey. Boy, was I wrong! Now I know the journey never really ends, we just keep growing and changing. However, I also know that once that little light of awareness goes on, we really can’t turn it off again. There have been times when I wished I could go back into the dark so that I didn’t have to face my real emotions and experiences. Facing our truth is hard work! Of course, I don’t mean that, I would never choose to go back to being unaware. It is so much clearer and brighter being aware of myself and my world. 

Different Soul Paths

My whole world has opened up to so many possibilities. Possibilities that I never thought of before. My beliefs look so different now than they did two years ago. I guess that’s what being on this journey means-learning about all of the possibilities. It is so hard not to think, “I wish I would have known then what I know now”, when I think of my brother who committed suicide over 2 years ago. I could have shared so much with him that neither of us had considered before. I think it is so easy to just stay in our little boxes of comfort, to not question too much because we may have to consider that there is more than one possibility. I can now see how each soul comes into the physical world with a plan. Maybe we don’t remember the plan once we are born, but still, I think we are all here to learn many different things about what being human means. Love, compassion, loss, gratitude, grace, awareness, acceptance,JOY,etc.

Awareness

I often wonder why we all don’t just wake up at the same time and realize that we are all in this together. I guess it would be a boring world if we were all the same. I do now believe that our souls are on different levels in this journey, so for me, this explains why we are not all waking up to consciousness at the same time. I think that we are waking up in shifts so to speak, so that we can all help each other. Prior to my brother dying, I had a pretty pessimistic view of the world. Even though things are not in the greatest shape right now, I feel very optimistic that we are in a time of positive change right now. 

Always with me

I think the greatest thing I have learned since waking up to awareness, is that I know for a fact that my loved ones never leave me. Even though my brother is physically gone, he is still here with me always.  I miss his physical presence everyday, but I am more comforted knowing that he is around, and that he is healing too. 

 

 


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