Taking back your power from depression

Written by Amie on February 6, 2012 – 1:20 am -

You are love….you have the answers you need right inside you…..dig through the old lies and stories to rediscover the truth you were born with…..you are a beautiful soul…..you deserve to be here…..you deserve to feel joy every day……let go of the old stuff you have carried around for years…..question every single thing you tell yourself…..only keep it if you know it to be 100% true….that means you have to prove that it is true! Do something for yourself that feels good…right now….tell yourself you are falling in love with…..YOU! 🙂

You have power!

Okay, here we go…….I have been having a bit of trouble writing lately because there is a tiny part of me that does not want to own my true power. I am right on the edge of stepping 100% into who I truly am. What am I afraid of? I am a tiny bit afraid of being seen as a “know it all”. Honestly, that is my truth right now. Up until a few years ago, I played small. I played the game of pretend….pretending I didn’t have power inside me….pretending I didn’t know how powerful I really am. When I say powerful, I do not mean this in an ego-based way….I am talking about the power every single one of us has because we are all a part of the same source. The only problem is, so many of us either do not recognize it, do not own it, or choose to keep it hidden. This is sad. Instead, most people are taught to play small; to go along with the crowd so as not to “make waves”. That was me. Until now.

threshold of fear

Here I go….I am stepping over that tiny threshold of fear, and letting go of the untrue thought that people will think I am a know it all. Even if someone does think that, it really isn’t about me, it is about them. I want to share with you what I *know* for certain. When I was severely depressed, this message most likely would not have made a difference to me, so I understand if this does not resonate with you *right now*. This is what I have come to know without an ounce of doubt and I want to share it with each and every person I come into contact with. Maybe you already know this and feel this deep in your bones. I pray that you do!!! I began the journey of learning this message after my kids were born. However, I did not *feel* it so deeply until the last year or so. If I could explain to you how I felt at the beginning of this journey, and how I feel now….you would be utterly amazed beyond words. I know I am. I came back to the truth that I know we are all born with.

So, this is what I know. These words are not mine. I just happen to be the conduit for them.

blaming others 

Depression is your soul’s way of trying to wake you up to remember your truth. I know I have said this before, but I must keep repeating it. Depression is your soul’s way of screaming (gently!) to you to please come back to realize you are magnificent. One reason you are feeling so badly about yourself is because you bought into (innocently)the nonsense that people who were supposed to love and protect you, either told you, or showed you, via their actions. This is not the fault of anyone. They were taught the same lessons they passed on to you, and for whatever reason, it was not their time to wake up and realize how dysfunctional their behaviors were. Many people have very sensitive souls. If this is the case for you, it was even more difficult for you to be with dysfunctional people in your life. Your soul was screaming out your truth, and this truth was shut down by dysfunctional people and/or a dysfunctional society. You learned to hide. If we stay hidden for too long, we have no choice but to shut down the truth that we were born with.

learning to take back your power

I am not saying all of this so you can blame your depression on someone else. That is not my message here. You are exactly where you are supposed to be. Your life experiences made you the perfect soul you are today. I am telling you this to encourage you to take back your power. When you allow yourself to see and feel the pain and hurt you have endured in your life, you automatically take back the power that was taken from you. Each time you question something you were taught to believe, you gain back power.  The more you question, the more you gain your power back. I am telling you this so that you can understand why you may be hating yourself right now. Your soul is weighted down with self-hate messages that are just plain lies. When you believe the self-hate, you can’t function in your truth. You are fighting against self-hate. The way to get out of depression is to start loving yourself. And, please believe me, I understand this does not always happen overnight. I say “not always”, because I want to leave the possibility open for you to believe it actually *can* happen overnight. Self-love begins when you start listening to and questioning the voices and messages in your head. Replace the lies with the truth. The truth is, every single one of us is here to give and receive unconditional love.

we are all mirrors for each other

We are here to see the beauty in each and every living being we come into contact with. Each being we come into contact with is a mirror for us. Each being has a part of us in them. We are all a part of each other. What I dislike in another person, I also dislike in myself. What I love in another, I love in myself. What irritates me in another, also irritates me in myself. This is a difficult pill to swallow sometimes, but it is the truth. Once we can see ourselves in every single living person/animal/flower etc., we will know unconditional love and we are free. Start by looking at every thought that goes through your mind….every reaction you have……every belief you have…..every choice you make…..and then question it…..while always being as gentle with yourself as you would be with a young baby. Nurture yourself by allowing your truth to surface without judging it. Replace the self-hate with a loving thought, even if it doesn’t feel true right now.

 

You are love….you have the answers you need right inside you…..dig through the old lies and stories to re-discover the truth you were born with…..you are a beautiful soul…..you deserve to be here…..you deserve to feel joy every day……let go of the old stuff you have carried around for years…..question every single thing you tell yourself…..only keep it if you know it to be 100% true….that means you have to prove that it is true! Do something for yourself that feels good…right now….tell yourself you are falling in love with…..YOU! 🙂

 

 

 

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How do I get out of depression?

Written by Amie on July 2, 2011 – 8:46 pm -

How do I get out of depression

I have heard many people talk about “getting out of” depression. I have said it myself many times as well; “how do I get out of this depression?” When I was meditating this morning it came to me that we never “get out of ” depression; rather we “go back to” the truth we were born with. We learn to go back to ourselves, which makes the depression dissolve. When we come from the mindset that we are plagued or trapped or stuck in depression, it instantly puts us into the helpless, victim mode. The victim mode is when we tell ourselves we have no choice. When one feels as they have no choice about something, they feel hopeless. Hopelessness fuels depression. The story we tell ourselves then runs our life. “I am stuck feeling depressed, there is no way out of this”, “Depression runs in my family, I am stuck”…..the conditioned beliefs and thoughts go on and on. We believe them and they become true. We are stuck. But, we really are not! It is just a story we are telling ourselves, and it can be changed!

Uncover the layers of conditioning that have you trapped

This takes a shift in your perspective. We begin to come back to ourselves by learning how to uncover the layers of conditioning that have trapped us in depression. We must rediscover the truth that has been sitting right behind the depression this whole time. There is no goal to get to. Start right where you are in this moment. Begin by becoming aware of the thoughts and beliefs you tell yourself. What do you tell yourself about your depression? What thought just went through your head? What story did you just tell yourself about that thought? Do you believe it? Can you prove that it is true? Really? How does it feel in your body when you believe your thought?Just notice, don’t judge. Become aware by becoming an observer. Just watch your mind….what is it telling you? Is it labeling the thoughts for you? Is your mind saying something is good or bad, right or wrong? Do you believe that? Where did that belief come from? Does it even make any sense? A very important point to remember is that all situations are neutral until we add our own commentary or story to them. They are still neutral, but our stories have labeled them and then we believe them. This is just your mind (ego) trying to keep you in check. When you start questioning things, the mind gets nervous and works really hard to try to come back to what it knows. It helps to think of this as a separate entity. Eckhart Tolle calls this the pain body. All of the accumulated trauma, stories, beliefs, and thoughts in our bodies become a separate entity that gets triggered until we are able to look at them and see them for what they are.

Depression is layers of untruths

Depression is layers of untruths that are just covering up who you really are. Who you really are got pushed down each time into hiding time and time again. The conditioning we receive in childhood teaches us to hide how we really feel, who we really are, and what we really need. We receive the message that we are somehow not OK. We unconsciously respond to this by building layers inside ourselves in order to protect ourselves. The process of depression begins each time we hide a part of ourselves. We have all been taught to do this. The great news is that it can be undone! Healing depression means finding your real self that was buried. It is a process, yes.  In order to heal, you must peel away the untruths of who you are not. Your real self (your joyful happy self) is still inside you, it always has been and always will be. It takes diligence and courage to peel away the untrue stuff to get to your true self. It is exciting work!

Depression does not mean there is something wrong with you

Depression is a reminder to you. A reminder coming from that place of truth inside you. It is  hoping and waiting for you to start peeling away the walls that have been built up to protect your heart. Your heart has been hurt by traumatic and stressful events in your life. Many of these being beliefs put upon you when you weren’t able to take care of yourself. Even as adults we believe things about ourselves that just aren’t true. Everybody has had events happen in their lives that force them to hide who they really are. Some people have had more than others. “Fixing” your depression really means chizeling away at these things blocking your truth. The truth is you are perfect and that you have everything you need inside you. Depression happens when you get away from believing you are meant to be here and that there is a purpose for your being here. Depression means losing the connection with the source of all life-the flow of love. Depression is the wall of wounds and hurts that cut you off from the infinite flow of love inside you. Start today by becoming aware of your thoughts and beliefs. Question everything!!!!! Do not believe your thoughts. Write down your thoughts and how your body feels when you think them. Awareness is the place to begin.

 

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