The other side of depression….feeling alive again

Written by Amie on October 6, 2011 – 2:40 am -

Your depression can be healed

I keep sitting down to write and then I can’t seem to finish. I am going to try again! A friend of mine helped me see that I may be having a difficult time writing because I no longer suffer from depression. This is an incredible gift! This site began because it helped me to write about my journey with depression. So, maybe I just need to change the focus a bit. First of all, I want you to know that *your* depression can be healed. I promise you that. As long as you are willing to do the work, you can feel better. I feel so grateful for the way I feel right now. I honestly can say I have never felt better in my life. I have never felt this alive ever before. It is so obvious to me now that I was completely shut down for most of my life. I was depressed for many years. So, here I am….really feeling fantastic! Please don’t read that and get discouraged if you are feeling horrible right now. I remember feeling horrible and then reading something positive and just wanting to punch the screen. I would mumble under my breath some pretty nasty remarks to the person who was feeling good. I know, pretty helpful, huh? So, please stay with me here, and keep reading. My intention for this website has not changed. I truly want to help others who are suffering. I want to share the things that have gotten me to this much healthier place.

Homeopathy

I must give homeopathy a huge shout out because I believe that without it, I might still be struggling. I was very very depressed. I thought I was as low as I could go. I was wrong. My brother committed suicide. There was a lower place than where I was. I honestly didn’t think I could pull myself out of it. But, I did. With the help of an incredible therapist, an incredible homeopath, the best friends ever, family support (which is difficult when you are all suffering from the same trauma), and some other tools. However, the fuel for my recovery was homeopathy. It helped ignite my life force. It wasn’t fast and it wasn’t always easy, but it was the best thing I have ever done. And believe me, I have tried so many avenues. I knew that antidepressants were not an option this time. I realized that I had to *feel* and not try to push away my truth. Homeopathy fit the bill. It helped me to do all of the other things that have been instrumental in my healing. E-mail me if you need a recommendation for a homeopath.

I woke up!

The fact that you are searching the Internet and the fact that you landed here tells me that you are awakening. This is the most exciting thing ever!!! If you stay with yourself, and allow yourself to *feel*, you will heal your depression. Waking up is the beginning. Knowing that you don’t want to suffer anymore is key. Seeing things for what they truly are, and seeing people in your life for who they truly are keeps you moving on the path of awakening. My soul woke me up. The birth of my children began the process for me. I saw in them what I was missing in my life. The love I showered on them was the love I missed growing up. Their birth awakened something deep deep inside me. I was able to *feel* the giant hole inside me that needed to be filled. As time went on, I continued to grow. I continued to see things more clearly. I saw people in a different light. The most important thing is that I was truthful with myself. I started finally telling myself the truth of  what I felt and what I needed and what I like and dislike. This was huge! I had to learn how to allow all of this without holding on to the guilt and shame that was attached to it. 

I love myself now!

This is the most incredible feeling in the world! I can honestly say I am completely in love with myself now. And I do not feel an ounce of guilt saying that! It began with learning to nurture myself. I learned to do things that fed my soul, my spirit. I learned to tell people no! I learned to stay away from people who didn’t feed the goodness in me. Was it easy? Hell no!!!! But am I stronger? Hell yes!!! Do I know for sure I am a strong empowered woman? Hell yes!!!! It takes work. It takes learning to talk back to the voice inside your head that is feeding you lies. Trust me, the voices are not you! They are lies. Loving myself feels so wonderful, I can’t describe it. I meditate every day. I feel out of sorts without it. I exercise at least 5 days a week. All of these things happened because I was ready. I do not push myself to do any of it. It all comes natural now. I crave doing things that feel good. And, back to homeopathy-it is the driving force. I believe these things all come naturally to me now because I am more in balance mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and physically. There is so much more, but I must go to sleep.

Contact me with questions, as I am truly here to help

 

You are love….you have the answers you need right inside you…..dig through the old lies and stories to re-discover the truth you were born with…..you are a beautiful soul…..you deserve to be here…..you deserve to feel joy every day……let go of the old stuff you have carried around for years…..question every single thing you tell yourself…..only keep it if you know it to be 100% true….that means you have to prove that it is true! Do something for yourself that feels good…right now….love…

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Giving a voice to depression

Written by Amie on June 1, 2011 – 1:33 pm -

A pill to make it go away

For years there was a nagging voice in my head that was saying “some day” you will be ready to speak up. I wasn’t ready until now. For the past few months I have been feeling better than I have ever felt in my life. It is so clear to me that healing from depression is a process. A process that unfolds exactly how it needs to unfold. You can’t rush it, you can’t take a pill to make it magically go away, you can’t push it away, you can’t wish it away. Our bodies are nothing short of a miracle. There is protection in place that will not allow us to push ourselves emotionally farther than we are ready to go. I am convinced of this. There is an unfolding in each of us. This is our journey. Depression leads to self love if we listen to it, give it a voice, and allow it to unfold as it needs to.

Life force

I have done so many things in order to grow through depression and to give my depression a voice. The things that have helped me the most are homeopathy, mind/body therapy, body movement, craniosacral therapy, and working on my throat chakra. So many other things have helped along the way, but right now, I would say these have been the most helpful. I have said it before, but homeopathy has really changed my life. I believe we are all energy, and homeopathy is an energy medicine. It stimulates our life force and assists the body in healing itself.

Shutting off your voice

Every time I shut down my voice, I prolong my depression and I shut off a part of my soul. Every single time. Depression will hang out with you until you are ready to give a voice to what is really true for you. You will do it when you are ready. But it is important to listen and to allow the voice to speak when your body is telling it to speak. It is a habit to shut yourself down. Somewhere along our journey we were taught that shutting off our own voice was what we needed to do in order to survive. It becomes a habit of protection. This is a great thing when we are young. It can keep us stuck when we are adults. Every single person has a right to speak what they feel and believe. Everyone, without question. We all have a right to be happy and to give and receive love. Everyone, without question. By not speaking up and giving a voice to our depression, we remain victims.

Throat chakra

For the past few months I have been focusing on my throat chakra. You might want to read about the chakras in our bodies. I won’t go into detail here. The throat chakra is located in the center of the throat and is linked to the ability to communicate. When we stop voicing out truth, the throat chakra gets blocked. When this happens, we have a difficult time speaking up for ourselves. So, the good news is that it can re-open! I have been going to craniosacral therapy which has helped so much. I also have two necklaces with stones that have the energy to help open the throat chakra. I practice saying what is true for me, out loud. This can be scary at first. It is great if you can say things to a person, but if you aren’t ready for that yet it is still helpful to say them out loud to yourself.

Depression is there for a reason

Depression can most definitely get better! I promise you that if you are willing to look around inside of yourself and allow your true feelings to come up, you can heal your depression. Depression is there for a reason….be grateful for it. I know, trust me, I know. That is not easy to do when you feel so badly that crawling under a rock to die peacefully sounds much better. I’ve been there many many times. But I am here to give you hope. It can and will get better if you are willing to accept who you really are and what is really true for you. It is a process. Let your feelings come and go. Let go of what you think things should look like. Be there for yourself. Be gentle with yourself. I promise you, you deserve joy and love and happiness. You can have that. Be willing to look inside yourself and be willing to voice what is really there. Become aware of what your mind is telling you….and be willing to question those things. Most of them have no truth. Awareness is the beginning of healing. Give a voice to depression. It is just hanging out waiting until you are ready. It will wait forever if need be. So, the sooner it gets a voice, the sooner it moves through.

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