Love yourself, heal yourself; love everyone, heal the planet

Written by Amie on June 13, 2013 – 2:25 am -

65% of people are unhappy

The energy in the universe is so heavy right now. I feel it on a daily basis. I believe that if each individual person can work on healing themselves, then the whole planet will shift. In fact, I believe we are in the midst of a huge shift of consciousness right now. I believe that the negative energy of each individual is fueling the negative chaotic happenings in the world at this time. And, people are at a very heightened stage of negativity. So many people are depressed. I heard a statistic the other day that said 65% of people are unhappy. Things are happening more rapidly, and time feels as though it is moving faster. Things in the political arena have gone haywire, and people are doing crazy things. People are desperately trying to hang on to the “old way” of doing things, which is not working, but many are having a difficult time letting go. With all of this being said, I think this is a good thing. Negative, traumatic, hateful, old beliefs and patterns, old ways of being with each other that are not nurturing, sadness, grief, etc….all of these things are coming up in people because the universe wants us all to heal. These things are coming up so that together, we can work on healing ourselves which in turn will heal the planet. The unhealthy state of the planet is equal to the unhealthy state of the human population. When we are able to heal our self-hate and judgment of one another, and instead come together to listen to and love each other, the planet will heal. Every time a person heals themselves, more love is put into the universe. When groups of people come together in mediation and/or prayer, healing for the whole universe happens. Focusing on loving ourselves is the same as loving other people. The more we love ourselves. the more we love others, and the more the planet heals. Love heals.

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(this beautiful creation is by Kelly Rae Roberts. My sister gave me this, and it is so special to me)

YOU ARE THE MIGHTY OCEAN IN A DROP

In order to get to self love, we must look at the darkness within. It can be scary, it can be painful, and there may be a lot of grief to get through. But each time you peel back a layer of darkness, you put more love into your soul and more love into the soul of the universe. You are a piece of the whole. This is one of my favorite quotes:  “YOU ARE NOT JUST A DROP IN THE OCEAN. YOU ARE THE MIGHTY OCEAN IN A DROP.’ by Rumi.  It is so true. We are each other, we are the universe, we are every single being, plant, water, animal, everything. So when we hurt ourselves, we hurt everyone and everything. When we love ourselves, we love everyone and everything.  *This* is how powerful you really are. I promise you. When you get through the conditioned lies that you have lived with up until now, you will see your pure loving soul. You will see how bright your light is shining right inside you. You are depressed for a reason. The reason is that it is your time to heal so that you can be a light to others, to help them see their light. You are not the stories you have been told, you are not the pain you have endured, you are not the mean hateful accusations that others have spewed at you. Each and every one of us is born pure love. Over the years we are dealt different levels of lessons. Some we label painful, some we label traumatic, some we label horrible, etc. But all of these things made you who you are today. And you are perfection. If you can find it in your heart to face the darkness, do your work to overcome the lies and untruths someone else put on you, then you will begin to see the beauty inside you.

each of us has the responsibility of healing our own pain

When others lash out at you, it is their emotional pain talking.  Remind yourself that it is their emotional pain being expressed externally. They feel so horrible inside, that they aren’t able to contain it or express it in a healthy way, so they may lash out at others. It is not about you. It is best to move away from them if they continue to do this. It is not your responsibility to take on anyone else’s pain. Each of us has the responsibility of healing our own pain. In fact, we are the only ones who know our own pain and suffering. One factor of depression may be the result of taking on others pain and suffering. Others can be helpful and supportive, but we have to feel the pain, and allow the process to evolve. Sometimes, it is too painful, and one may choose to stay in denial. It is understandable. What I am saying is that if one wants to live a fully awakened life, sharing and loving with others, the hard work has to be done. Living is very different than just surviving your day. Fully living means to feel and be in the moment as it happens. Depression and anxiety can be overwhelming when our pain takes over. I understand this completely. And this is the reason that self compassion and self love have to practiced. Loving self talk has to the first step in healing. You have been beating yourself up for way too long. And, you don’t deserve to have someone else’s negative self talk running through your head as though it is truth. Negative self talk is the accumulation of dysfunctional behavior, other people’s emotional pain, and conditioned messages you picked up from traumatic or very stressful events in your life. You were not born with negative self talk. It was learned. And the awesome news is that it can be unlearned! I promise you!!! Little by little, or sometimes big by big, this self talk can be quieted and loving, nurturing talk can replace it. It takes awareness and practice, while you are working on peeling away the layers of untruths, and working through stressful traumatic experiences.

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.”~the Buddha(although many say the Buddha didn’t say this, I still love the quote!)

 

begin loving yourself right in this moment, even if it feels fake

I know how difficult depression is, I promise you, I have been so low I didn’t think I would survive. But I am here to tell you, you are pure love, you can heal, and there is nothing wrong with you. Right now, you are already perfect. Begin loving yourself right in this moment, even if it feels fake. Nurture yourself every single chance you get, even if it feels undeserved. Reach out to those you feel connected to. Distance yourself from those who hurt you, unless they are actively working on healing their own pain. If you choose to have them in your life, set boundaries to protect yourself from negativity and hateful words and actions until they can meet you in a healthy place. You can still have compassion for them without allowing them to hurt you. Give yourself time and space and love and nurture and connect with those who love and support you. Self love takes practice. Write yourself loving reminders, hang pictures that remind you to love and nurture yourself, read books that remind you to love yourself. Take time to process the experiences in your life that hurt you but remain repressed. Find a therapist who can gently help you through the process. We are all human and we all have emotional baggage and pain. It is what we decide to do with the pain that will determine how much love will be in our lives. Love yourself, heal the planet. You are loved!

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Healing takes a lot of hard work; moving to self-love

Written by Amie on May 13, 2013 – 1:45 am -

buried who they truly are, what they truly desire, how they truly feel, and possibly negative or traumatic experiences that carry guilt and/or shame.

Changing your pattern to self-love will take work. But coming to a place of self-love will be the best reward you can ever imagine! Trust me when I say I know what it feels like to feel hopeless and stuck. And please trust me when I say, we are meant to love ourselves. I believe this with every ounce of my being. Does that mean our lives should be without heartache or difficulties or grief? Absolutely not. We will have all of these experiences because we are human and because we desire love and connection with other humans. But if we are in an emotionally healthy place, these experiences may be difficult, but we will be able to see them in a much different light than we do if we are in a place of self-hate. When a person is in a deep place of self hate, they may act out in all sorts of unhealthy ways. For example, one might lie about a situation in order to protect themselves emotionally rather than choose to be vulnerable and admit how they hurt someone they love. One may choose to overeat, or drink too much alcohol, etc., in order to try to block out feelings of self-hatred/guilt/shame.  Sometimes it is difficult to “see” this in a person who appears to have it all together. Most people have learned to have two (or more) personalities. One is the personality they display when they do not wish to be authentic, honest, etc. (in protection mode, or denial) The other is their “true” self, which mostly gets lost or buried until a person is able to love themselves, or desire a more authentic way of being. Depression comes when a person is completely hiding their true self, in an attempt to protect themselves emotionally.  They have buried who they truly are, what they truly desire, how they truly feel, and possibly negative or traumatic experiences that carry guilt and/or shame.

people who can be unkind to a loved one but then turn around two seconds later and be kind

I want to write about how to begin the journey to self-love and self-compassion. Have you met people who can be unkind to a loved one but then turn around two seconds later and be kind to a complete stranger? I have. And I am sure I have been guilty of this myself somewhere along the way. This is the example I will use to help you begin your journey to self love and self compassion. Even though the actions of being kind to that stranger aren’t authentic, I want to ask you, don’t you at least deserve the effort you gave them? I witnessed a mother (I assume she was the girl’s mother) in a store the other day who was with her  approximately 8 year old daughter. The young girl was looking at cards and would come to her mother to ask, “is this a good one”? It was very clear from watching, that the young girl wanted to pick the “perfect” card for whomever it was she was buying the card. It was obviously very important to her to pick a special card. The mother’s response was, “Just pick a fuc*ing” card”. I was shocked, and sad, and I wanted to go to the girl and tell her “I see you trying to pick the perfect card, I see it is so important for you to choose the most special one.” But I didn’t.  The woman passed me after being so unkind to her daughter, and she very politely said, “excuse me”, and even smiled at me! I don’t want to pass judgement here, because maybe this woman had a terrible day and this isn’t how she usually speaks to her sweet daughter. I truly hope this is the case.  If this isn’t the case, then I hope this woman will eventually come to a place of loving herself so she and her daughter can have an emotionally healthy relationship. So, how does this relate to what I am talking about?

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 in the moment

Well, my guess is that this woman’s outburst to her child is also her own inner voice. The one she uses to beat herself up with. It is difficult for a person who dislikes themselves to see a young  beautifully innocent young girl who is in the moment, happily picking out a special card (or whatever the situation may be). It “triggers” something inside them that if they don’t take the time to figure out why it triggers them, they will continue beating themselves up. The other important thing to notice is if this young girl starts taking in this negativity; the unresolved emotions, the  negative talk from her mother, she too, may begin the process of self hate. This is not always the case. There are some people who seem to be able to hear this negativity and separate it from themselves. They somehow realize even from a young age that these negative interactions are not personal. Unfortunately, many people take on this negativity as if they deserve to be treated unkindly. When frequent situations such as this happen, a person may develop a very harsh inner voice. I just wanted to mention this, because it helped me begin to understand how my own harsh inner voice began. I could *feel* the person’s emotions (energy) if it was negative, even if they were saying something to me that they wanted to sound “positive”. I *felt* them rather than *heard* their words. Hope that makes sense. It is like someone telling you your beloved pet cat is going to be okay, when in fact, you feel they are lying to you so that they don’t have to tell you the truth. By the way, this behavior is crazy making! It took me years to figure this out. A person claiming to care about me saying one thing to me, but I would feel the complete opposite coming from them.

 If you are able to be nice to a stranger, you *know* people deserve kindness!

To begin the process of being kind, loving, and compassionate to yourself, you must begin to be aware of your thoughts. And then when you notice a negative one, start a dialog with yourself. Be that lady who was polite to me. Even though I felt negative energy from her, she was still able to talk kindly to me. No, it may not feel authentic, but it is a start. And, consider this: you deserve to be treated kindly and with respect and compassion! If you are able to be nice to a stranger, you *know* people deserve kindness! Guess what, you are one of those people who deserve kindness! Most importantly, you deserve kindness from yourself. Try doing this even when it doesn’t feel authentic to you. It most likely won’t feel authentic for awhile. That’s okay. That is to be expected since your inner voice has been so critical for so long! And, your inner critic ISN’T YOU!! That inner voice is an accumulation of those negative voices, thoughts and beliefs stemming from negative experiences (like the little girl I mentioned about) and negative people all throughout the course of your life.

“I am so lazy, why can’t I just clean my room?”

I am a very emotionally sensitive person, so if you are too, it is very likely you have picked up many of these negative experiences. And remember, dysfunctional people pass their dysfunction on to others unless they are working on healing these experiences. So, if you have had unhealthy people in your life at any time (which, let’s face it, who hasn’t?), chances are good that you may have picked up unhealthy thoughts and beliefs about yourself. You can begin right now to change this. If you have a negative thought about yourself, it is absolutely not true. There is a difference between saying to yourself something like, “My room is messy, I would like it cleaned up”, vs. something like, “I am so lazy, why can’t I just clean my room?” BIG difference! The first statement is simply a desire, the second is a harsh self-judgment meant to make a person feel shame. Begin simply by noticing and observing these thoughts going through your mind. Then question them; is this self-judgment, is this a kind voice, whose voice is this? Ask yourself how you would respond to a young child who you happen to over hear speaking to himself with this voice. I’m guessing you would respond with love and kindness and compassion? GIVE the same thing to yourself!

Nurture yourself!

I am going to add more to this post soon, but until then….please think of small ways to begin nurturing yourself. Buy yourself a new pen, go to the library and get a book you have been wanting to read, take a long hot bubble bath, get outside and go for a hike with the soothing trees and birds and crickets, play with your cat or dog, allow yourself to take a nap, play a fun game with a child, light a candle and sit down for 10 minutes and just observe your breath moving in and out of your nose, get a massage, paint, draw, color, work with clay, write in your journal, sing, dance, jump on the bed, do something that makes you feel loved. This is the beginning of loving yourself. Give yourself a big hug and talk to yourself as if you are a small child who still trusts love. You deserve love! You are love! You ARE NOT those negative thoughts you have been living with and believing all these years.

 

 

 

 

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